2021 Mid-Year Book Freak Out Tag

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Hello, friends! I know I am maybe a couple days late, but I was trying to get one last read in! I’m not sure how it is already July and we are half way through another year, and another year in a pandemic! But I’m always sending you all my whole heart, and wishing you the best in life and with your reading. And I hope you enjoy this little mid-year reading update of mine! 💗

So far in 2021, I’ve read 21 books

And here are some other fun statistics I’ve generated by using Brock at Let’s Read‘s spreadsheet!


➽ 1. Best book you’ve read so far in 2021:
She Who Became the Sun Shelley Parker-Chan
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➽ 2. Best sequel you’ve read so far in 2021:
We Free the Stars Hafsah Faizal
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➽ 3. New release you haven’t read yet, but want to:
Yolk Mary H.K. Choi
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➽ 4. Most anticipated release for the second half of the year:
Iron Widow Xiran Jay Zhao
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➽ 5. Biggest disappointment:
The ​Crown of Gilded Bones Jennifer L. Armentrout
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➽ 6. Biggest surprise:
Amari and the Night Brothers B.B. Alston
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➽ 7. Favorite new author (debut or new to you):
Ace of Spades Faridah Àbíké-Íyímídé
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➽ 8. Newest fictional crush:
Jane Su from One Last Stop Casey McQuiston
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➽ 9. Newest favorite character:
Ouyang from She Who Became the Sun Shelley Parker-Chan
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➽ 10. Book that made you cry:
A Wish in the Dark Christina Soontornvat
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➽ 11. Book that made you happy:
Honey Girl Morgan Rogers
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➽ 12. Most beautiful book you’ve bought so far this year (or received):
Chain of Iron Cassandra Clare – Waterstones Edition


➽ 13. What book(s) do you need to read by the end of the year?:
Yolk Mary H.K. Choi, A Lesson in Vengeance Victoria Lee, The Fall of Babel Josiah Bancroft
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When I started writing this up, I was a little scared that I was going to be disappointed with the amount (or lack) of books I’ve read. The last few years, when I was very active in the community, I always read over 100 books and one time even over 200! But looking at these statistics and these books, I can’t help but feeling very thankful because I have never had a reading year halfway update where I have read so many things that I’ve truly loved. And I think in general we should all just be a lot gentler with ourselves and our expectations always, but especially still trying to navigate our lives during this pandemic. And I’m very hopeful thinking about how many books I am still excited to get to before December 31st! Okay, friends – I love you so much! If you want to see other years of me doing this book tag:  HERE is my 2020 tag, HERE is my 2019 tag, HERE is my 2018 tag and HERE is my 2017 tag! Happy reading, and I’m so proud of you! 💗

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3 Mini Reviews | The Drowning Faith, The Chosen and the Beautiful, Darling

hi hi hi – i miss you all and i hope you’re well! i have a bunch of these half written up mini review posts so i figured i would actually throw three together! i can’t wait to start reading all your mid year posts and statistics! and hopefully you will see one from me soon! i love you all so much, happy reading! 💕


The Drowning Faith (The Poppy War, #2.5) by R.F. Kuang

1.) The Poppy War ★★★★
2.) The Dragon Republic ★★★★★
3.) The Burning God ★★★★★

“She’s the only divine thing he’s ever believed in. The only creature in this vast, cruel land who could kill him. And sometimes, in his loveliest dreams, he imagines she does.”

Well, those fifteen pages broke me and my heart completely. This was everything. This was perfection. These are my new favorite fifteen pages of all time. Be still, what is left of my heart.

The Drowning Faith is a collection of a few scenes, where we get to see Nezha’s perspective of many events from the first two books inThe Poppy War series. Nezha and Rin have one of the most complicated relationships throughout all three books, but these few pages really just made the impact of everything they’ve been through, fought for, and built together that much stronger.

“It doesn’t matter that he loves her. It doesn’t matter. It’s never mattered.”

Rin and Nezha were always stars from opposite sides in the celestial sphere, even if they always looked like they were formed from the same exact constellation. These scenes hurt to see from Nezha’s point of view so very badly. Yet, they both shined so brightly in a war that they were forced to be main players in just by being born.

But this short amount of pages still talks about colonization and how Petra and the hesperians are happily able to commit the most evil acts in the name of their god, while taking over everything to prove Rin and Nezha’s are lesser, even when they are the ones winning the battles.

Truly, I could write a thesis on these crumbs, but I have extensive reviews for all three books that I suggest you check out instead. But this truly was such a treat, and I feel so honored that Rebecca gave these scenes to us. Even if it allowed for a certain kiss scene to break me all over again in the best and worst ways, and even if page ten has now left me to become a ghost now inhabiting this husk of a human body.

“She’s everything he’s not: unbound, reckless, free. He’s never known anyone like her. She terrifies him, and he loves her so much it hurts.”

Content and Trigger Warnings: torture, violence, death, human experimentation, and war themes.

5


The Chosen and the Beautiful by Nghi Vo

“…like some kind of sacrament that I had forgotten to take.”

a queer asian-american main character great gatsby? i knew i needed this in my life. i will be honest, i have never been the biggest fan of the great gatsby, so i do believe this impacted my enjoyment a little bit, because this book does very much still hold true to the original work! but i still thought this was a beautiful reimaging, with such lush prose and one liners, that left my heart beating so very quickly so many times. the magic was also so hauntingly perfect and i know it’s something i’m going to think about constantly for quite some time. the themes of identity within the story were also very important, and how no matter how much you feel like you fit in, people will always remind you that you will never truly be one of them. and the themes of identify outside the story, and how we deserve to carve out our own spaces, we deserve to be the main protagonists of beloved classics and modern day lit, and our voices deserve to not only be told, but to be amplified really was everything to me as a queer asian reader.

i can’t wait to read more by this author, and i’m very thankful that the chosen and the beautiful is a book that exists.

content and trigger warnings: a lot of talk of drinking, talk of war, talk of loss of loved ones, death, murder, racism, microaggressions, a lot of cheating, abuse / domestic abuse, mention of suicide, mention of slavery, mention of blood.

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Darling K. Ancrum

K. Ancrum is truly just a once in a lifetime author. Her prose and craft are so unique and so smart and every book by her feels like something of magic. Darling is a modern day thriller reimagining of Peter Pan with a very diverse cast; our main character is Black and we have a very full cast of side characters side characters of color (Black, Korean, and Ojibwe), who are queer (lesbian rep, ace rep, bi rep, and a really beautiful Chicago drag scene moment that I could gush about forever), and disabilities (hearing impairment & amputated hand).

Wendy has recently moved to Chicago, but when moving into her new bedroom she realizes the window is broken and unable to stay closed. And this story is told over the course of one night when she leaves through the window with Peter Pan himself because of a promise of a party, but she soon realizes that Peter did not walk out of the pages of a fairytale.

This is a very unsettling and uncomfortable story about the vulnerability of kids (especially bipoc queer kids) who feel like that don’t have a place to belong. Every book by this author is truly a love letter to found families, but this book also explores the importance of safety and how hard it can be to recognize abuse, especially when it it can be disguised as kindness when you are longing to find a place to belong. Again, this can be a bit of a terrifying read at times, but you will be swept alongside Wendy, becoming more and more enthralled, discovering all the things, and wanting to protect all the lost kids.

K. Ancrum is just an author that really means a lot to me, and I know her stories are touching and helping and healing so many kids who are able to find her words. She is such a bright light in this universe, and I’m forever thankful that I get the honor to read her books. Truly, once in a lifetime.

Content and Trigger Warnings: death (off page), murder (off page), police brutality, child abuse, manipulation, abduction, child abandonment, explosions, grooming, blood depiction, brief mention of disordered eating, and anxiety depiction.

5


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The Project by Courtney Summers | ARC Review

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“Having a sister, Mom says, is a place only the two of them will share, made of secrets they never have to say aloud—but if they did, it would be a language only the two of them could speak.”

Courtney Summers is an author who has always meant a lot to me and her stories always impact me more than I have words to write in a review. I truly believe no other author writes about the sibling experience and feelings that I personally have better than her, even though I always am left feeling grateful and thankful that I am not a main protagonist in her stories. And The Project is no different; it is hard hitting, filled with twists and turns that make you constantly question what is real, it is lyrically written, emotional, and fully a heart-wrenching story about the things you are willing to do for someone you unconditionally love, even when you feel isolated and confused and so very scared. Oh, and it’s about cults and how they prey on people who are isolated and confused and so very scared, too.

Lo was only thirteen-years-old she was in a car accident that left her parents dead and with everyone believing that she wouldn’t be alive much longer. Bea was only nineteen-years-old when she watched her world fall apart when she walked into the hospital to maybe say goodbye to her little sister. Desperate for hope that Bea wouldn’t lose Lo too, she went looking for something to believe in inside the hospital, and found Lev Warren. And when Lo ends up making a huge leap to recovery that very night, Bea realizes there is nothing she wouldn’t pay to ensure her sister will live.

“Bea closes her eyes. She wants Lo to understand that night in the hospital, what was supposed to be Lo’s last night on earth. How it brought Bea to her knees and how it split her heart in half and how its breaking called forth a miracle.”

Six years later, Lo is alone again and hasn’t spoken to Bea in many years. She feels hurt and abandoned and just misses her sister so much, and she directs all that pain in to the Unity Project, that Lev Warren runs and where Bea is a member. And then one morning, Lo’s world gets touched again by the Unity Project when she witnesses someone take their own life, but before they do they recognize her because of Bea. And this death touches even closer when it impacts her job, and she gets the opportunity to finally do a story for the magazine she is working for. And she decides she will finally contact her sister again and make her see the corruptness of the Unity Project, and she won’t let anyone stop her, especially Lev Warren.

“All I wanted was to claw my way back to my sister, but the whole time she was surrounded by new love, she buried her old family and built a new one on top of its bones.”

This story is mostly told in Lo’s perspective, but we get little glimpses of Bea’s throughout and every time I could feel my stomach and heart just drop lower and lower. The things that both of these sisters were willing to do for one another renders me utterly speechless. Truly, I feel like no one can write vulnerability and sacrifice, unconditional sibling love, earth-shattering desperation, and pure heartbreaking hope like Courtney Summers. All while also making her characters feel so real, and their journeys feel like you are right beside them experiencing everything alongside them. Yet, also make you question everything at every twist and turn.

Lev is written in a way that is scarier than any monster in any fantasy book, because monsters like him are living and dwelling and thriving in our world today. They prey upon people who are isolated from their families, people from lower incomes, people who are unable to get help from broken American health care systems, people who very rarely will realize that what they are experiencing is manipulation, gaslighting, and abuse. And if they are able to realize it, they are unable to seek help because men like Lev are gaining more and more power, more and more followers, and more and more resources to keep you trapped every single day. This is a hard book, and it is so very dark at times. The range in which Lev is able to manipulate people into believing his cult is a community is actually harrowing. And seeing Lev lead people into believing that he is a vessel for God, chosen to do His wants, is truly some of the scariest literature I’ve ever read and it really will leave me feeling haunted forever.

“The hard part is this: the small broken girl inside me clawing against the wall I’ve built to keep us separated. The one who still wants so much for certain things, despite all she knows.”

Overall, I really did love this and I very much believe Courtney Summers was born to write and impact so many people with their stories. Her way of crafting and telling stories leaves me in awe, and I’m always completely blown away reading all her last lines. The reason I am giving it four stars is because I didn’t love the ending. I mean, this wouldn’t be a Courtney Summers’ book without a bit of a mysterious ending, but this one was just a little too mysterious for me and left the book at a little bit of a weird note when you look back at everything that was endured. But the last line? Perfection. Speechless. Masterpiece. Everything. Courtney Summers and her stories truly are something special and I’ll carry them within my heart always, despite how heavy they are.

Content and Trigger Warnings: abandonment, loss of loved ones, sleep paralysis, grief, depression, panic attacks, hospitalization, talk of death of child in past, physical abuse, torture, emotional abuse, manipulation, gaslighting, blood depiction, complications with childbirth, murder, child abuse, captivity, and cults. Please use caution and make sure you are in the right head space for this book, because a lot of these triggers are themes that are brought up a lot and unapologetically. Stay safe, friends!

4
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February 2021 TBR

Hello friends! I am still redoing my space as you are reading this (my desk tops come in this weekend and hopefully everything will be perfect after that), so I’m not sure I will read this first week of the month! But I still wanted to tell you six things that I’m planning on reading, and I’m very excited to review on the blog! 💘


The First Sister (The First Sister Trilogy #1) by Linden A. Lewis

This was an amazing gift from my amazing friend Genny! This story looks like is is queer scifi with lots of diversity, and I think I’m buddy reading this with Maëlys, Romie, Lilly, Lili, & Star! (And that… makes my heart soar, truly!) And extra perfect timing for F/F February!

➽ The Empress of Salt and Fortune (The Singing Hills Cycle #1) by Nghi Vo 

Maëlys gifted this novella (and the second, because she is too kind and I love her so much) to me for Christmas, and Tor recently sent me The Chosen and the Beautiful, and I really can’t wait to fall in love with all this queer Asian lit!

The Gilded Ones (Deathless #1) by Namina Forna
February 9th 2021 by Delacorte

Fairyloot included ARCs of this in one of their past boxes in 2020 (with really beautiful teal sprayed edges, to boot!) and I am so excited for this African fantasy debut! Also, all my early reviewing friends have adored this one! (Oh, and you might see me unbox a finished copy of this on instagram this month too, muahah!)

Yolk by Mary H.K. Choi
March 2nd 2021 by Simon Schuster Books

Mary HK Choi has my whole entire heart, and her books are always and forever my favorites! I can’t wait to read and love this third novel from her, and I’m sure I will be gushing about this all month and for forever after that too!

Raybearer (Raybearer #1) by Jordan Ifueko

This was the number one book I was so sad I didn’t get to in 2020. I feel like every friend of mine who I have similar reading tastes to adored this one and put it on their best books of the year list. I can’t wait to read it and hopefully be able to scream <with luv> about it with them asap!

A ​Court of Silver Flames (A Court of Thorns and Roses #4) by Sarah J. Maas
February 16th 2021 by Bloomsbury Publishing

Listen, I laugh at myself because you all know how much the last few SJM books have ultimately let me down. But this brand new spin-off start is starring one of my fave characters so I have a lil hope, and I will jump in the trash can extra and read this at midnight when it drops, like I do all SJMs because of 1.) hype and 2.) not wanting to be spoiled by lil shits!


February is also Black History Month – and here are some cool readathons you should check out:

The Black Lit Challenge 
Blackathon 
Black Author Readathon

And just in general, I hope you are being conscious of picking up more books by Black authors, not just in February, but always! 💕



Tell me a book you are extra excited to pick up this month! I hope transitioning into this wild new year has been treating you and your family kind. I am sending you all my whole heart always, and I hope you are having happy reading!   💗

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January 2021 Wrap Up

How we are already a month into this new year, I’ll never know! But hello, friends! I hope you are doing well! As you are reading this, I am in the middle of redoing my room! I figured, if I (very privilege-ly) have to work from home for another six months, I’m going to make my space feel a little more lighter, brighter, and separated! But my mind has been hyper focusing on getting everything ready (and everything collecting in my garage) for the entire month of January! This is my very long-winded intro to tell you that I “only” read five and a half books this start of 2021, but I’m still very happy with that, and excited to tell you all about those five and a half things…. now! ❤️📖

Lore by Alexandra Bracken ★ ★ ★

“and to believe that you deserve a good life.”

– greek gods abandoned by zeus
– a citywide hunger games every seven years to take the gods’ power
– perseus bloodline mc trying to get revenge for the brutal murder of her family


Ace of Spades by Faridah Àbíké-Íyímídé ★ ★ ★ ★ ★

“the year that will make all the blood, sweat, and tears worthwhile”

– thriller where the only 2 Black students at a private academy are being targeted
– unpacking all the racist systems still thriving today
– very gay & very perfect


Laura Dean Keeps Breaking Up with Me by Mariko Tamaki & Rosemary Valero-O’Connell ★ ★ ★ ★

“For almost the past year I’ve been in love with a girl named Laura Dean”

– Asian-American lesbian
– writing to an online advice column about her abusive relationship
– wanting to be a good friend, even though sometimes life (and mental health) can make it hard


From Blood and Ash (Blood and Ash #1) by Jennifer L. Armentrout ★ ★ ★ ★

“From this moment until the last moment, I am yours.”

– chosen maiden for the gods, but vampires may have other plans
– very sex positive & a very good look at exploring different wants
– angst & yearning on every page


A Kingdom of Flesh and Fire (Blood and Ash #2) by Jennifer L. Armentrout ★ ★ ★

“He was the first thing I’d ever truly chosen for myself.”

– not nearly as good as book one & so much set up
– but more gods & new secrets
– maybe some polyamory rep in the next book, but maybe just baiting me


Honey Girl by Morgan Rogers – currently reading: 143/296

“If you’re out there, Honey Girl, I am singing you a song. It’s a good song. It won’t lure you to the depths of the ocean. It’s a song that leads you just to me, I think, if you’re listening.” 

– so freaking romantic I am actually losing my mind 
– fake marriage between two people from different coasts one weekend away in vegas, but they can reconnect over a spooky radio show 
– sapphic swooning, yearning, perfect, romance between our Black mc and her Asian love interest 
– BIPOC in STEM and the extra expectations placed  
– found family that I would literally die for 
– will 100% make my best of 2021 (and probably best debut of 2021 too) 
– I promise to talk about WAY more very soon & honestly probably never shut up about it. 


I’m sorry this is a little rushed with the mini points; it’s something I’m trying to incorporate on other social media platforms, and I thought it might be cool (and easier) to do for these wraps ups too! But you can always click the titles for a full review (hopefully)! Also, I really do promise to gush a whole lot about Honey Girl because it really is everything, and I know that everyone is going to be so in love with it when it drops! I really hope you all put it on your February TBRs! Okay, friends, I love you so much! Let me know what was your favorite book of January! And I’m sending you so much love, always and forever. ✨

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Top Ten Tuesday | 2020 Debuts I Loved

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Top Ten Tuesday was created by The Broke and the Bookish in June of 2010 and was moved to That Artsy Reader Girl in January of 2018!

Last year was truly so very wild for so many reasons, but one of the few happy wild reasons was because there were so many amazing debuts! I was so impressed over these ten books, I was so happy to see a T10T prompt like this so I could gush, celebrate, and support them a little bit more on blog! And I can’t wait to see what all of these authors (and their stories) do next! 

You Should See Me in a Crown by Leah Johnson
The Henna Wars by Adiba Jaigirdar
Eva Evergreen, Semi-Magical Witch (Eva Evergreen #1) by Julie Abe
The Bone Shard Daughter (The Drowning Empire #1) by Andrea Stewart
Loveboat, Taipei (Loveboat, Taipei #1) by Abigail Hing Wen

Star Daughter by Shveta Thakrar
I’ll Be the One by Lyla Lee
The Year of the Witching (Bethel #1) by Alexis Henderson
These Violent Delights by Chloe Gong
Where Dreams Descend (Kingdom of Cards #1) by Janella Angeles

I truly do recommend all of these books, and they truly were such bright shining lights in 2020 literature! Tell me which 2020 debut was your favorite! Or which 2021 debut you are most looking forward to! The way I just know that Honey Girl by Morgan Rogers is going to be absolutely everything I’ve ever wanted! Okay, I love you guys so much and I hope you’re having the happiest of reading! 

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From Blood and Ash (Blood And Ash, #1) by Jennifer L. Armentrout

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“From this moment until the last moment, I am yours.”

At the end of 2020, I kept seeing this book all over book social media and it was being loved by such a vast range of bookish friends. And then it was the goodreads choice awards 2020 best romance winner! Up until this point, I had never really read anything by Jennifer L. Armentrout, but my curiosity was so very peaked! Then once I entered 2021, I still felt like I could not escape the hype of this series! Finally, I read a few reviews by friends and found out that this was a fantasy series,, with a paranormal romance, and that information, in addition to it feeling like higher powers were at work to get me to read this, made me finally give it a try. And one I read that first chapter I knew I couldn’t put this down.

From Blood and Ash introduces us to Poppy, who is a chosen maiden for the gods. She is not meant to be touched, to be looked at, or to experience anything that is not considered god-like. She is quickly approaching her nineteenth birthday and soon she will leave to the capitol and have her Ascension, where she will prove that she is worthy of the gods and will help protect her entire kingdom from a curse carried by those who are unworthy of the gods. Yet, there is another kingdom living in hiding, who will do anything to make sure Poppy isn’t able to make her Ascension and change anything. (I am trying to be kind of vague here, because I truly did not know before going in, or expect in my wildest dreams, the paranormal aspects of this book, and I believe it did heighten my reading experience!)

But Poppy has so many secrets, including her own kind of powers that are manifesting stronger and stronger to help read and sooth people’s emotions. And there is also the secret of what happened to Poppy’s family, that left her and her brother the only ones alive to carry out the will of the gods, while Poppy is also forced to carry so many scars, both physical and emotional, from that night.. And there are secrets in the palace where she is currently living with the Duke and Duchess and a lot of abuse going on behind closed doors that are only meant to protect her. But the weight of grief and expectations are getting too heavy for Poppy to bear, so at the start of this first book she decides to sneak away from the palace for one night where she can maybe experience things without being expected to be a pure vessel for only the god’s consumption. And when Poppy ends up at a tavern, and in a private room, with Hawke, a very young but very skilled guard, she gets a taste of what she has been missing and what she may want for herself, unapologetically.

“You’re a perfectly normal girl. What is expected of you is what’s bad”

I do think grief and abuse are a constant theme in this story, and we get to see how those two words can present themselves in so many different ways. Different fear tactics are constantly in play, both in this kingdom and in Poppy’s life, to keep people in check and to keep them abiding to a corrupt system. Serving evil can easily be masked by saying it is serving the gods. Ultimately, this is a swoon-worthy and angst-inducing paranormal romance story, but there are a few layers here that I hope people are looking and listening very closely to while reading!

“You deserve so much more than what awaits you”

This book has really good discussions about what it means to be a young person discovering your wants and needs, while also slowly growing into the person you want to be and how hard that can be to separate from expectations already placed on you. This book is very sex positive, and consent is always at the forefront. I am also just going to type this with my full chest and then pretend I didn’t but, for me and my body and my personal experiences, I thought that the building of orgasms (and just some body reactions in general) in this book were very realistic and very well done. But anyways, I loved seeing Poppy reclaim so many things, and this romance is the first one in what felt like years that I am trying completely head of heels in love with and rooting for. But, please allow me this one small mini drag for those of you who have read this book:

Overall, this book truly blew me and my expectations away and it was very much the perfect book for the perfect time in my reading life. I laughed, I smiled, I swooned, I cried, I gasped, this book truly made me feel so much and it was just an amazing journey throughout. I feel like the twists were very well done and laid, I feel like the romance was filled with yearning and angst on every page, and I was constantly left wanting more and more. And the last line of this book? Yeah, I will be picking up A Kingdom of Flesh and Fire immediately. This was a joy to read from cover to cover.

Content and Trigger Warnings: death, gore, talk of loss of a child, talk of kidnapping, talk of death of children, mention of loss of a child in past, loss of a loved one, mention of suicide, assault, physical abuse, blood depictions, mention of rape, anxiety depictions, self-harm to get blood, and general war themes.

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