Evidence of the Affair by Taylor Jenkins Reid

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“Alone in the world and alone in my marriage. Alone in love, really.”

So, basically, I’m trying somewhat hard to hit 200 books this year. And last night I just couldn’t sleep, so in the late hours of the night, I decided to read this short little novella to help boost my number. Holy shit, friends, I went into this book not expecting much, but came out weeping over its beauty.

This is a very short read, that is told completely in the format of letters from the late seventies. Letters between two cheating individuals, but, more importantly, letters between the spouses of those cheating individuals, who are sharing the letters they find between each other. Taylor Jenkins Reid is kind of known for pulling off some powerful and emotional twists in her stories, but I am in awe of how flawless she was able to do it in such a short number of pages!

“Dear Mr. David Mayer, My name is Carrie Allsop.”

Carrie Allsop – A stay at home wife, who has always been happy with her dependable, yet boring, husband. Even though she is constantly questioning her worth because she is thirty and still hasn’t gotten pregnant in the decade she and her husband have been trying.

David Mayer – High school teacher, who loves his wife and four sons more than anything in this world. But he has also been questioning his self-worth because money has been getting tighter and tighter.

And I just loved the completely taboo and unconditional friendship that these two form over a horrible situation. I love how they were each other’s soundboards because no one else would even begin to understand what they are going through, the exact way that they understood it together. I don’t know, this was just a really beautiful story. And I really love the way TJR ended this book, too. Legit perfection.

I think this book really has a good discussion about love, and how it is not always that perfect, Hallmark picture that so much of the world will have you believe. Real love can be complicated, messy, hard, and something that you have to work for every single day. And sometimes it can be filled with forgiveness. And I think this book really does a great job at touching on how easy it is for people to judge other’s relationships, without having any empathy and without believe that something similar could ever happen to them.

“It is funny the crazy things our brains make up to save us from the truth.”

Overall, I really loved this. I was blown away and I will continue to read everything that TJR comes out with. She truly is becoming one of my favorite contemporary authors, and I think she is doing some really unique things with her writing. Also, as of today (December 14th, 2018) if you have Amazon Prime, this is FREE on Amazon US!

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Content and trigger warnings for infidelity and talk of infertility.

 

The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins Reid

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“I spent half my time loving her and the other half hiding how much I loved her.”

This is one of the best books I’ve ever had the privilege to read. It is probably in the top five for best books I’ve ever read in my entire life. I have been looking for a book like this my entire life, and no combination of words I’m about to type, and you’re about to read, is going to do this masterpiece justice. But I will say that Gabby, Joce, Amelie, and Elyse were all right, and I’m so happy I listened to them, because this book is worth every single ounce of hype.

And when I say that this book is lifechanging, I truly mean it. This book is sold as a historical romance, where you learn about a fictional, famous, old Hollywood actress and all her marriages. What you get is a book that stars a bisexual, Cuban woman who was never allowed to talk about the love of her life; her wife. And when I say I cried during this book, I truly mean that I probably need to buy a new copy because I was the biggest mess you’ve ever seen.

“And it will be the tragedy of my life that I cannot love you enough to make you mine. That you cannot be loved enough to be anyone’s.”

On top of this being a powerful book about race, sexuality, misogyny, and having to conform to societies norms, the true meaning I took from this book is that life is short, so damn short, and we shouldn’t spend it pretending to be something we aren’t. And we shouldn’t spend it doing anything less than loving the people who are worthy and deserving of our love.

“I didn’t need boys in order to feel good. And that realization gave me great power.”

We follow Evelyn from the very start; losing her mother very young, her body developing very quickly, noticing others noticing her developing body, marrying a man so she can leave the dead-end city she grew up in, so she can become something more. Evelyn is unapologetic with her actions, and it is one of the most empowering things I’ve ever read. She plays so many more parts than the roles she is cast in. And Evelyn learns really quickly how to play each and every man she is forced to interact with, and she quickly learns what she can gain from each and every one of them, too.

This story is told from two different timelines and two different points of view. One from Monique Grant, who is a biracial (white and African-American) woman who is going through a fresh divorce and trying to make something of herself in the journalism field. And her life changes the day her editor tells her how Evelyn Hugo is demanding her, and only her, to write something for her.

“Heartbreak is loss. Divorce is a piece of paper.”

The other timeline(s) are all the different times in Evelyn’s life, and the different seven husbands that she had, while she is recounting the events that lead her to be telling Monique this story. Evelyn has lived a very full life, and is in her late seventies now, and is finally ready to talk about her life. But the entire book we are guessing why she has chosen only Monique for this job.

“Make them pay you what they would pay a white man.”

If you guys have been following my reviews, you’ll probably know that I talk about found family and how important it is to me a lot, but The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo is the epitome of how beautiful a found family can be. Evelyn and Harry’s friendship in this was one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever read in my entire reading life.

“When you write the ending, Monique, make sure the reader understands that all I was ever really looking for was family. Make sure it’s clear that I found it. Make sure they know that I am heartbroken without it.”

And the romance? The true romance in this book is the most romantic thing I have ever read in my entire life. And you guys know I’ve read a ton of romances, but they are all lesser to this. Every single one of them can’t compare with the romance in this book. I feel like every time I’ve used the word “perfect” to describe something that wasn’t the romance in this book, then I used the word wrong.

“Please never forget that the sun rises and sets with your smile. At least to me it does. You’re the only thing on this planet worth worshipping.”

How many Evelyn and Celias are there in the world? How many are still playing the role that Evelyn was forced to play? I cry for every single person who must hide who they are, and who they want to love. And this book talks about many big things in queer history; from the Stonewall riots to the disgusting Reagan administration, but life still isn’t anywhere close to equal in 2018. The prejudices, the discrimination, the virus/syndrome blaming, the looks I’ve experienced holding a girl’s hand while walking into a restaurant? Those are still in 2018, in the United States, but people act like none of those things exists because marriage is legalized, begrudgingly. I’m not writing this review to get on my soapbox, but I promise, we have a lot more work to do. And this book, this book lit a fire under me.

I personally identify as pansexual, but I felt like the bisexual rep in this was a tier above anything my eyes have ever seen. Seeing Evelyn love all the parts of her, and all the different parts of her love, was something so awe-inspiring. I am still so overwhelmed with feelings, but if you identify as bi or pan, this is a love letter to you, I promise.

“I was a lesbian when she loved me and a straight woman when she hated me.”

This book also focuses a huge importance on motherhood throughout the entirety of this book, and then I read the acknowledgement and started weeping all over again. Taylor Jenkins Reid was able to evoke the strongest emotions from me, and I just pray that things will be different for the generation of kids being raised right now.

This was the first thing I’ve read by Taylor Jenkins Reid, but I will buy every single new thing she produces. The writing was so lyrical and addicting. I mean, I have a quote between almost every paragraph. This whole book deserves to be highlighted. The characters, well, my mind has now forever imagined that these are real people now, so there is that. The topics, themes, and discussions are beyond important. This book just makes me feel so passionately. This book is one of the most empowering pieces of literature I’ve ever consumed. And I am not the same person I was before this book.

“I told her every single day that her life had been the world’s greatest gift to me, that I believed I was put on earth not to make movies or wear emerald-green gowns and wave at crowds but to be her mother.”

If you guys ever take a recommendation from me; please have it be The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo. Please, I’m actually begging you. I promise, this book is lifechanging, and I equally promise you that this book changed mine. There is magic between these four-hundred-pages. Pure magic. This story is addicting, enthralling, and so important. And if you’re an Evelyn, in 2018, I see you, but I hope it doesn’t take you as long as it took her to be happy. This will forever be one of the best books of my life, and I’ll cherish it forever.

“People think that intimacy is about sex. But intimacy is about truth. When you realize you can tell someone your truth, when you can show yourself to them, when you stand in front of them bare and their response is “You’re safe with me”—that’s intimacy.”

Trigger/Content Warnings: death of a loved one, death of a child, talk of suicide, unhealthy dieting, underage sex with an adult, abortion, talk of miscarriage, a lot of physical abuse, cheating, dunk driving, and homophobic slurs.

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Buddy read with May & Alexis! ❤

March 2018 TBR

March might be a little rough for me, reading wise, because I am going to be in California for a week at the end of the month, and I’m not sure how much reading I will be able to get done. Yet, I still came up with a very ambitious list, which I really hope I can get through! Honestly? All of these books look beyond words amazing, so I hope I’m able to devour them all and to hopefully love them all, too! 💖

Opal (The Raven Cycle #4.5) by Maggie Stiefvater:
This comes out March 1st and I’m beyond words excited! I hope this gives me the Pynch fix I need to hold me over until Ronan’s book! Also, give me all the Opal! I absolutely cannot wait for this short story! And by the time you guys are reading this, I’ve probably already devoured it.

Furyborn (Empirium, #1) by Claire Legrand:
ARC via SourceBooks (Release Date: May 22nd, 2018)
Two girls, a thousand years apart, but somehow connected. This is a YA Fantasy that comes out in May, that showcases a bi main character, and completely has my full attention and all my hype! I am so excited! Buddy read with Jessica, Alexis, Destiny, Jules,
Jenn, Lilly, Imogen, Paula, and Rian! ❤

Circe by Madeline Miller:
ARC via Netgalley (Release Date: April 10th, 2018)
This is honestly the only thing I truly want to read right now. I wish I could completely forget about this entire TBR except for this. This is an Odyssey retelling from Circe’s POV. Please, bless me and my favorite witch in existence.

The Heart Forger (The Bone Witch #2) by Rin Chupeco:
ARC via SourceBooks (Release Date: March 20th, 2018)
This will probably be one of the first things I read, because of the early release date! Yet, I am so damn excited! I loved the first book, The Bone Witch, so much! And I just know that this sequel is not going to disappoint! Also, give me all the necromancer books, please. Plus, this is a buddy read with Lilly! ❤

Grey Sister (Book of the Ancestor #2) by Mark Lawrence:
ARC via Penguin (Release Date: April 19th, 2018)
Lord, March is going to be such a blessed month! I am beyond words excited for this. Nona is one of my favorite protagonists of all time, and I can’t wait to see more of her journey in this sequel. I loved Red Sister so much, and it was one of my top ten favorite books of 2017! I just know that Grey Sister is going to make my 2018 list!

Obsidio (The Illuminae Files #3) by Amie Kaufman & Jay Kristoff :
I’m sure this one is on everyone’s TBR this month, but with good reason! The third and final novel in this series is going to be worth all the hype once it comes out on March 13th! You guys probably saw that I read and love Gemina in February, so I couldn’t resist adding this to my TBR! I hope I am able to get to it on release date! *shakes fist at mailman*

High Voltage (Fever #10) by Karen Marie Moning :
You all know I’m trash for this series, and I can’t stop. I honestly can’t wait to read this next installment in my Ireland fae guilty pleasure, when it releases on March 6th! But I did order a signed copy from B&N, so I wouldn’t be surprised if it doesn’t show up for a few days! *shakes fist at mailman again, even though it is not their fault whatsoever*

The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo by Taylor Jenkins Reid :
I know, I can’t believe my gay self hasn’t read this one either? But I will be buddy reading this with May & Alexis this month! ❤ And I cannot wait!

The Trials of Morrigan Crow (Nevermoor, #1) by Jessica Townsend:
This is going to be a readalong for the BooktubeSFF Awards and a buddy read with Sue & Lourdes! ❤ People are calling this the next Harry Potter, so hopefully this new middle grade novel lives up to the hype! And… hopefully I have a new book world to obsess over!

The Barrow Will Send What it May (Danielle Cain #2) by Margaret Killjoy:
ARC via Tor (Release Date: April 3rd, 2018)
Tor was so kind and sent me both book one and two in this series, so I can’t wait to read and fall in love with both of these this month! Plus, these are supposed to be super queer novels that have some amazing representation inside of them! And… summoning demons is always my aesthetic, let’s be real! Plus, this is going to be a buddy read with Destiny! ❤

Whew, okay, I think that is everything! Again, I really hope to get to all this! And I honestly think I will. I actually can’t remember the last time I was think excited with a TBR! Seriously, perfection! And I’m saying this knowing that March is going to be a very busy month for me! But I wish you all the happiness and all the good books this March, my loves! 💗

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